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Monday, January 7, 2008
The Best I Can Be
Here's my thought this evening. I received an email from a good friend today that really made me think about my role as a mother. I had (and still have) a big fear that I would be a crappy mom. I am still scared almost every day that I am failing, failing, failing! I cry often when I think about how my kids might feel towards me when they grow up. I guess by having kids I am taking the chance that one or two people may grow up hating me. All I can do is try my hardest each day. Many times my hardest isn't all that great, but I have to keep trying. Maybe they will still grow up to think I am a crappy mom. I think a lot of that has to do with the personality of the child, also. The most unfortunate thing about being a mother is that everything is your fault....for the rest of their lives. And I'm sure I will look back and think about all the crappy things I did as a mom and I will feel inadequate, but I will also know that I loved them and fed them and bathed them and read to them and taught them and held them and cried over them and prayed for them and fought for them and always, always wanted the best for them... basically just did my best to be the only mom I knew how to be. It's not like I got to practice a few times before becoming a mom for real. I just have to remind myself that I am the best mom they have....because I am the ONLY mom they have. Hopefully they can love me for what I am. :)
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4 comments:
Amen sister! :)
You are a great Mom, and I think you're right. No matter how hard we try, they'll probably still look at their friends' moms and think, "why can't my Mom be like that?" That's depressing.
But, on a happy note, I think you're a great Mom!!
I think we all struggle with that. The kids are going to get baggage just living life. It's a big fear that I'm going to add to it. Then they'll be sitting at a therapist one day like I've had to do about my mother.
Raising kids is hard but one thing is, they can't have too many hugs and kisses. That is what they'll remember! :-)
Awww...this made me sad! You are an awesome Mommy!
Go forward with faith, Lindsey. It's true that your children may have issues with the way they were raised, but ultimately your mothering is between you and God. I know from first-hand experience that Satan can use these worries against us, making us feel like we aren't the awesome women we are. You're doing a great job, and having lots of fun, too, by the looks of the things I've been reading on your super cool blog!
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